Yeah it’s tough times. And yet I feel luckier then some. I still have a full time job, I haven’t been ill or know anyone who has been. But COVID and lockdown has been a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions regardless.
We were all sent home at the end of March. For the month of April I had no way of doing my office job, but was still being paid. In a weird way, it was timely. I’d been considering a career break for a while, having worked non-stop full time for over 15 years. I didn’t have a “year out” for travelling when I was younger. It was straight out of collage into work, so weirdly, suddenly being at home and not having to go to work was kind of what I’d wanted for a while!
It got old towards the end of May. It was frustrating how little we could do. But then my work got its act together and we started getting what we needed to work from home. That was better for a while, but due to the nature of my work, I needed to be back in the office to be properly effective. So start of August I went back on a one week on, one week at home basis.
This worked well. I was productive again, everyone was being sensible. Now, COVID is rearing up again and we’re well into a second wave here in the UK, and the progress we were making towards going back to normality has ceased. And that’s making me anxious and frustrated. It’s made worse by the fact I have 2 members of staff I manage, one who’s only just started and the other who’s not been around much longer. If the rest of my colleagues were around, it would be much easier to train and manage my people, but it’s quite the challenge when you’re on your own, trying to keep them busy, enthused, motivated and show them how to do the job, while also staying on top of my own work. My other colleagues have always been supportive, but while they’re not around, they don’t see and I don’t think they understand the pressure i’m under…
So yeah, right now, COVID working sucks balls. It’s cool that we’ve adapted and found ways to make some things work, but it’s far from ideal. I feel bad for my newbies more then anything…
Meanwhile, at home my wife is expecting our first child. It’s exciting and scary. She’s out of work and money is tight, but bills are manageable at the moment. I need a new car. We’ve always lived within our means, but I found myself worrying about money in the future for the first time in a while a couple of nights ago. We’ve been fortunate up till now and we’re lucky to have what we have, but I’m kind of on edge, waiting for something else to break. I can afford to replace my old car in the coming months, but if the roof fell off the house tomorrow… that would be tough.
Phew. I didn’t realise how much I would end up typing. If you got this far, thanks I feel better for writing this down. It’ll be interesting to look back in a year’s time.
Hope you’re all well.