I want to keep this short because I don’t want to do a trauma-dump on everybody, but after deleting my account on this website for the second time in the span of a few months I think I can safely say I’m going to be steering clear of Grouvee for a while.
I have been struggling a lot with my chronic mental disorder that makes communication difficult and I believe it has been bleeding into my behaviour on Grouvee. It’s hard to describe, but for a while I’ve felt really tense posting status updates. I started to see it less as a personal journal and more as a means to justify my feelings on games to other people. I was leaving comments that are snippy, spiteful, argumentative and frankly out of character for me. You could argue that I was responding to users talking down about subjects I am passionate about, but please don’t argue that. I consider this to be a personal failure: I shouldn’t be taking the bait and it isn’t worth my time to merely disagree strongly. But recently, this combatative posting has been deteriorating my experience of this website and its community after I felt myself become an active participant in this type of discourse before I even realised it. It’s not the relationship with this community or any community I ever sought to have.
I want to stress again that this is no particular persons fault, user or moderators. This is the result of my own personal issues. Barring a few negative experiences with certain users, my time with this community has been delightful. Know if I’ve ever given you a love heart on the main page or in the forum, you are lovely and if I make a new account again, it’ll be because of you all.
I’d be happy if you kept in touch with me. I haven’t posted on Bluesky yet, but it’s there; I’m using Backlogged to keep track of what I’m playing in the meanwhile (banned myself from posting, comments or reviews); I will be leaving my forum account active for the time being, shoot me a direct message if you’d like to add me on Discord.
Thank you!
Jace 