The place I’m in is so toxic and so awful, and I’m being told constantly now to “get the fuck out”. The last day and a half I spent having nonstop panic attacks and crying because of how I was treated. For anyone curious, no, there’s nowhere for me to go. There’s no shelter and I couldn’t stay in one anyway. I live in a run down farm house in a basement in the middle of an empty field on a lone road, and I don’t. drive. So yeah, my options are literally to be rescued.
My girlfriend has said that sometime next year, she’s getting an apartment - currently saving up for it while she does her degree coursework - and then she’s gonna come get me, but honestly, much as I trust and believe her, I don’t think I can wait that long anymore. I need to get out now. Aside from my belongings, most of which are clothes and media (I own a single piece of furniture, for the record), I don’t take up much space. I have two small dogs, both very well behaved, both don’t bark and both like other dogs and even cats. I just need help, please. I need out.
I asked the other day if anyone here was from New Jersey and if so could I crash with them until I can move in with her. I understand it’s a huge ask, like, the biggest, and especially coming from a stranger and especially in an era where everyone is struggling to survive, but I really am worried that by the time that option comes and she’s capable, I won’t be alive if I stay here longer. I’m really genuinely worried. Anyway, sorry to put so much personal shit out there and ask for the impossible. I just need some reassurance and maybe some help if someone can do it. I’m sick of trying to die. I have a very great future if I can just hold on, but I’m scared I can’t hold on here anymore.
I don’t live near you but I tried my best to find transportation resources in your state. I imagine you may have already tried this before but just in case this provides you some assistance with your situation to get to a homeless shelter or to someplace else in the area where you can find some safety and footing.
I mean I literally described exactly why that’s not an option, but thank you for replying anyway Nice to know I’m not falling on deaf ears hah Also I’m in New Mexico, not Jersey. She’s in Jersey. Just clarification.
Sorry. I was responding quickly while I was at work. I thought there might be an organization that would be able to help regardless of how far away from society you might be. I realize I misunderstood what you were asking for. I’m sorry.
I’m so sorry to hear that. I really would like to be of help, but I don’t even own my own house, and I’m countries away. Best I can say is that I REALLY hope you escape and your situation gets better. You deserve the best for yourself, and anyone who says otherwise needs to improve.
I just really need out of this. I need to be somewhere else, with someone who actually wants me around. But I hate that I am literally incapable of making that change myself because of circumstances. If my folks had taught me to drive, if I could ever have a real job, things could be so much different. But they aren’t. That’s just how it is. And now I’m trapped in a place I have to literally be non verbal and walk on eggshells on all the time in order to not be screamed at and told to “get the fuck out” every day. All I need is a hand. Just one person who lives in the area, willing and capable of helping. But like I said, it’s a huge ask, and I understand that.
Nice to know I’m not falling on deaf ears hah Also I’m in New Mexico, not Jersey. She’s in Jersey. Just clarification.